“Or maybe a person is just made up of a lot of people,” I say. “Maybe we’re accumulating these new selves all the time.” Hauling them in as we make choices, good and bad, as we screw up, step up, lose our minds, find our minds, fall apart, fall in love, as we grieve, grow, retreat from the world, dive into the world, as we make things, as we break things.”

Here's a book that has been sitting on my shelf for YEARS. I bought it basically right when it came out, there was a lot of hype surrounding it and I wanted to get in on it. I remember starting it and reading the first couple pages, but for some reason I put it down and just never picked it back up again. Until 6 years later. 


Well, now I've finally sat myself down and actually read the book and I have to say, I understand the hype. (A little late, I know). It's a very well written story, with beautiful, almost poetic writing. And the story itself is utterly heartbreaking. It follows twins Noah and Jude in different time frames. They used to be inseparable, but now they are estranged and barely talk. Noah narrates when they were 13, and the rocky road leading to their estrangement, while Jude narrates 3 years later, when they're 16 and barely speaking to each other. It's so sad to see them fall apart, and it's also heart wrenching seeing both sides of the story, because each twin has a story to tell and secrets they're harboring that are holding them apart. 

“People die, I think, but your relationship with them doesn't. It continues and is ever-changing.”

The twins' relationsip is what I found the most appealing about this book. I love a good sibling dynamic. While it was a very central point to the whole story, I felt disappointed by the lack of actual interactions between Noah and Jude. We got some, but I wanted more. I loved seeing them together, and how they talked and acted with each other, in both timelines. Even when they are estranged you can still see how much they love each other. Honestly, though, the person-to-person interactions were pretty limited in this book in comparison to others. I'll Give You the Sun is a lot more of a narrative tale than one with a lot of dialog and interaction, which is cool to really see inside the twins' minds and the poetic way that they think and see the world, but also disappointing because interactions are always fun to read and help you really get attached to the relationships being displayed. 

While I did enjoy the romance, I have to admit, it fell strongly into the category of instalove. Which is one of my least favorite tropes-- it's really hard to fall for a relationship when you don't get to see it build. Of course, with this book you do semi get to see the relationship build, but the feelings are there instantaneously. Plus, when you think about the timespan of Jude's story, it's not that long. So the intensity of the feelings is insane. So, while I did enjoy the connection, I can't say that the romance was world-endingly amazing. Instalove just has always been a turn off for me. I guess it's impressive that I even liked the relationship at all, because usually instalove romances lead me to not caring at all for the relationship or the book. 

The one of the best parts of this book is its complexity. It weaves a tangled tale-- or two tangled tales, and there's so much going on. Dealing with love, loss, jealousy... you name it. It has a lot of depth, which can lead it to feel a little dense and heavy at times, especially since there's not as much dialog and interactions. It really hits you, with all the heavy themes it's hard not to feel like you've just been punched in the chest. Still, I wouldn't let that discourage you from reading the book seeing as that's what makes it so good-- just how impactful it is. Definitely an emotional read. 

I'd give this book 7/10 stars. It was really good, and it made me feel things-- I hurt so much for these characters and just wanted what was best for them. It's a beautiful tale, and one I would definitely recommend to anyone looking for something impactful. 

Synopsis: 

"We were all heading for each other on a collision course, no matter what. Maybe some people are just meant to be in the same story."

At first, Jude and her twin brother Noah, are inseparable. Noah draws constantly and is falling in love with the charismatic boy next door, while daredevil Jude wears red-red lipstick, cliff-dives, and does all the talking for both of them. Years later, they are barely speaking. Something has happened to change the twins in different yet equally devastating ways . . . but then Jude meets an intriguing, irresistible boy and a mysterious new mentor. The early years are Noah's to tell; the later years are Jude's. But they each have only half the story, and if they can only find their way back to one another, they'll have a chance to remake their world. This radiant, award-winning novel from the acclaimed author of The Sky Is Everywhere will leave you breathless and teary and laughing—often all at once.

Printz Award Winner Stonewall Honor Book. 

"Letting go is not forgetting. It's opening your eyes to the good that grew from the bad, the life that blooms from decay." 

Here's another beautifully written, and beautifully told story by Emily Henry. It's a story of love, loss and letting go. Henry has a knack for artfully stringing words together. Her words are, like I said before, beautiful, poetic, even. There are so many metaphors and stunning visuals used throughout. You just get lost in the words, swept up in the magical realism of the story. 

"Maybe for some people, falling in love is an explosion, fireworks against a black sky and tremors rumbling through the earth. One blazing moment. For me, it's been happening for months, as quietly as a seed sprouting. Love sneaked through me, spreading roots around my heart, until, in the blink of an eye, the green of it broke the dirt: hidden one moment, there the next." 

Like Henry's other novel that I utterly fell in love with (Beach Read), A Million Junes isn't pitched all that accurately. See, I was attracted to the novel because it promises a forbidden romance, which sounds like that'll be the central point to the book. And while yes, there is an adorable romance, it's not the central point. If anything, the romance is the inciting incident. I would argue that the focal point is loss, grief-- and learning to let go and deal with it. And while that wasn't exactly what I was expecting when jumping in, it was somehow exactly what I needed. 

"Grief is an unfillable hole in your body. It should be weightless, but it's heavy. Should be cold, but it burns. Should, over time, close up, but instead it deepens." 

This doesn't happen often, but I got a little teary while reading this. That's how well-written the story, the characters and their relationships are. I almost cried. The themes of loss and grief really hit home, and they're presented so accurately, so realistically that it was hard not to really feel the characters' emotions as my own. It hit especially hard towards the end-- when you get to see the beauty and the happiness of it all hidden along with all the sadness. 

Okay, okay, the way I'm presenting this is like A Million Junes is a dark and depressing novel. It's not. It's... hard to describe. It fuses together so many different things that shouldn't work and yet somehow they do. The story and tone as a whole start off pretty whimsical, set in a contemporary world with magic intertwined along with it. It's hard at first to really combine the real world aspect of the story with the oddities going on, but once you do it's not hard to truly lose yourself in it. Yes, loss and grief are very prevalent throughout the read, but somehow the author is able to entwine those with other pieces so they don't feel quite as dense but you still get the umph from them. Does that make sense? I don't know if it does, but I can't think of a better way to describe it. Don't let the idea of some "darker" themes scare you away. There's still plenty of lighthearted, sweet moments and while it is a read that presents a lot of depth, it's not dense. The flow of the writing feels like you're really living in that moment-- it's not boring or heavy in any way. 

"We both know that pain comes for us all. It's almost a relief. Because if all of us are going to someday lose the people we love the most, or be lost by them, then what is there to do but live?" 

I absolutely loved the relationships in this book. Both romantic and otherwise. The romantic relationship between Saul and June is that "forbidden romance" that's pitched in the synopsis. While, yes, there is an element of forbidden-ness to it, that's not really the central point of their romance. They have intense chemistry, and their banter is to-die-for. I also adore both of their characters-- neither of which fall into any pre-set stereotype. They just fit so well together and I love it. I also want to mention that the main character's (June's) relationship with her best friend was beautiful and perfect as well. They're so loyal and dedicated to each other. There's no stupid misunderstandings that pull them apart like what tends to happen in this kind of story. Their friendship is strong, and they don't let anything pull them apart. I love that. 

I also appreciated seeing June's relationship with her family. It's complicated, but hey, isn't that what makes it more realistic? June's relationship with her father is particularly interesting. She always saw him as golden and perfect-- and throughout the novel she realizes there's more to him than that, which doesn't necessary make him bad, but just real. I love that too. 

"My inheritance is grief and sunlight and the ability to choose which to hold on to." 

If you didn't catch on while reading this, there's nothing about this book that's "typical" or can fall into a pre-set stereotype. Every aspect, character, relationship is actually pretty unique-- you won't be stumbling across many cliches in A Million Junes. While cliches can be fun, this book shows how breaking out of those can be a breath of fresh air. This was an immensely enjoyable read. It was nothing like I expected it to be going in, and somehow that made it even better. It really made me feel things, and will have a special place in my heart. I'd rate it a good 7.5/10 stars. A definite must read for anyone out there dealing with loss or just looking for a good book that'll make you smile, laugh, cry and just all together feel all the feels. 

Synopsis: 

​For as long as Jack “June” O’Donnell has been alive, her parents have had only one rule: stay away from the Angert family. But when June collides—quite literally—with Saul Angert, sparks fly, and everything June has known is thrown into chaos.

Who exactly is this gruff, sarcastic, but seemingly harmless boy who has returned to their hometown of Five Fingers, Michigan, after three mysterious years away? And why has June—an O’Donnell to her core—never questioned her late father’s deep hatred of the Angert family? After all, the O’Donnells and the Angerts may have mythic legacies, but for all the tall tales they weave, both founding families are tight-lipped about what caused the century-old rift between them.

As Saul and June’s connection grows deeper, they find that the magic, ghosts, and coywolves of Five Fingers seem to be conspiring to reveal the truth about the harrowing curse that has plagued their bloodlines for generations. Now June must question everything she knows about her family and the father she adored, and she must decide whether it’s finally time for her—and all the O’Donnells before her—to let go.

"People were complicated. They weren't math problems; they were collections of feelings and decisions and dumb luck. The world was complicated too, not a beautifully hazy French film, but a disastrous, horrible mess, speckled with brilliance and love and meaning." 

This is an incredible read. Honestly, while it's a cute title, I think the title of "Beach Read" does this novel an injustice. "Beach Read" sounds like it's just some cute, lighthearted romance that you'll read and enjoy, but won't necessarily stick with you once it's over. While this novel does have a cute romance, it's certainly not one that you'll be forgetting about anytime soon. Beach Read delves so much deeper than your typical beach read (confusing sentence, I know). It's not just a romance. While romance is an aspect of the book, it certainly isn't all of it. 

I dove into this book fully expecting what the title said I'd get-- a simple beach read. I was pleasantly surprised the deeper I delved into the pages to discover that it's so much more than that. This book is love. It's loss. It's discovery, and realizing that people aren't perfect, and that's okay. Don't let this turn you off if you're not looking for a particularly deep, dense and heavy novel. The deep, emotional side of this novel is somehow masked with the light, sunny tone of the story. So yes, it's deep. It's emotional, you can really feel and emphasize with the characters. But it reads like a light and warm contemporary novel. While there are deeper and more emotional ideas and scenes in this, don't worry. There's still plenty of sassy, laugh out loud or giggle moments. The romance is amazing-- it's built up at just the right pace and the two leads have magnetic chemistry. The added depth just makes the book all the more better because it makes the characters feel so much more real and relatable. They're imperfect, they have issues-- just like the rest of us.  Honestly, I was disappointed when I finished, and then I just turned the book over and started again. That's how much I loved reading this. 

The book follows January Andrews, a romance writer who has recently been disillusioned with life. The death of her father, and the realization that he wasn't the man she'd thought he was knocks the rose-colored glasses off her face, making her realize that the world isn't nearly as perfect and beautiful as she'd thought. 

Throw in Augustus Everett, January's ultimate rival since college and polar opposite. He's dark and a bit brooding. Someone mentioned this in another review that I read and I thought it was worth mentioning: while he's a dark and a little bit mysterious, he manages not to be a total asshole as the typical dark male lead usually is. He's actually a big sweetheart and I adore him with all my heart and soul. 

The two make a bet-- try to write in the other's genre. January will write more 'literary' novels, and Gus will write romance. Every week they take each other on "field trips" to help the other get in the mindset of their writing. And let's be real here, these are basically dates but am I so down for them? YES I AM. Like I mentioned earlier, the pacing of this romance is perfect. From the beginning there's chemistry between the two main characters. Their teasing and banter is enough to put a goofy grin on anyone's face. 


I'd give this book 9/10 stars, the writing is beautiful, the relationships are amazing, the plot is perfect and the characters are imperfect in ways that make them even more perfect. It was a stellar read and I honestly just want to sit down and read it again, again and again. If you're looking for a book that will melt your heart and hit you right in the feels while simultaneously making you giggle and grin? This is the book for you. 

Here's the actual synopsis: (Again, like the title, I don't think the synopsis does this book justice-- it just makes the story sound like a rom-com, when it's SO much more than that, but, you know, the romance element is quite nice too...) 

A romance writer who no longer believes in love and a literary writer stuck in a rut engage in a summer-long challenge that may just upend everything they believe about happily ever afters.

Augustus Everett is an acclaimed author of literary fiction. January Andrews writes bestselling romance. When she pens a happily ever after, he kills off his entire cast.

They're polar opposites.

In fact, the only thing they have in common is that for the next three months, they're living in neighboring beach houses, broke, and bogged down with writer's block.

Until, one hazy evening, one thing leads to another and they strike a deal designed to force them out of their creative ruts: Augustus will spend the summer writing something happy, and January will pen the next Great American Novel. She'll take him on field trips worthy of any rom-com montage, and he'll take her to interview surviving members of a backwoods death cult (obviously). Everyone will finish a book and no one will fall in love. Really.

Looking for a cute, rom-com-esque novel that will put a smile on your face? Look no further. As the title would indicate, Emma Lord's debut novel Tweet Cute is equally as adorable and hilarious as you might expect. 
This is a light, quick read. It follows two characters: Jack and Pepper, who have a rivalry both in school and out of it. Yet, somehow they manage to be falling for each other in both setting as well, even if they don't realize it. Both their families own restaurants, and when their family businesses' social media accounts get into a Twitter war, little to Jack and Pepper realize it's each other they're battling behind the screens. 
It's the kind of ridiculous, fun set up you'd expect to see in a rom-com. And this book supplies all the smiles and laughter you'd expect from it. It's not overly deep, so if you're looking for a novel to move you... Sorry this isn't the place, but if you just want to smile and read some happy fluff, Tweet Cute has your back. 
I'd give this novel a solid 7/10 stars. It was a really fun read, not necessarily one that will stick with you for a long while after, but it accomplishes its purpose and I really couldn't ask for more than that. 

Synopsis: 

A fresh, irresistible rom-com from debut author Emma Lord about the chances we take, the paths life can lead us on, and how love can be found in the opposite place you expected.

Meet Pepper, swim team captain, chronic overachiever, and all-around perfectionist. Her family may be falling apart, but their massive fast-food chain is booming ― mainly thanks to Pepper, who is barely managing to juggle real life while secretly running Big League Burger’s massive Twitter account.

Enter Jack, class clown and constant thorn in Pepper’s side. When he isn’t trying to duck out of his obscenely popular twin’s shadow, he’s busy working in his family’s deli. His relationship with the business that holds his future might be love/hate, but when Big League Burger steals his grandma’s iconic grilled cheese recipe, he’ll do whatever it takes to take them down, one tweet at a time.

All’s fair in love and cheese ― that is, until Pepper and Jack’s spat turns into a viral Twitter war. Little do they know, while they’re publicly duking it out with snarky memes and retweet battles, they’re also falling for each other in real life ― on an anonymous chat app Jack built.

As their relationship deepens and their online shenanigans escalate ― people on the internet are shipping them?? ― their battle gets more and more personal, until even these two rivals can’t ignore they were destined for the most unexpected, awkward, all-the-feels romance that neither of them expected. 

Ladies and gentlemen, let me introduce you to what may very well be my favorite read thus far in 2020. Anyone who's actually interacted with me in the past several months has been subject to my spiel about this novel so I figured I might as well put it on line too. I read You Deserve Each Other for the first time back in early April. Yeah, the first time. See, despite having midterms and a plethora of other schoolwork I needed to get done, as soon I finished this book I flipped it over and started again. That's how much I absolutely loved it. Since then, I can't even tell you how many times I've dived back into this one. It's just that good. 
You Deserve Each Other has quite the rom-com premise. It follows Nicholas and Naomi. They're engaged, but they don't exactly want to be. At least, not anymore. See, over the past year of their engagement, the two have fallen out of love with each other. The only issue is, there's still this expensive wedding that needs to be paid for. Whoever calls off the wedding has to pay the price. Thus, the two enter into a game of chicken, trying to push the other into calling the marriage off. 
Very rom-com sounding. And yeah, the novel starts off pretty normal, not too extraordinary, but the deeper you get, the more you realize that this novel is so much more than just a rom-com. 
You Deserve Each Other falls into the trope of re-falling in love with each other. And honestly I'm convinced that needs to be a more popular trope, because I don't see it often, but whenever I do the book leaves an imprint on me and I can't seem to get it off my mind. (I.e. Love & Other Words by Christina Lauren). So many romance books end when the chase is up, when they're finally together, like the chase is the most interesting part and being together is just boring. But this trope proves that's definitely not the case. Because it's not smooth sailing after falling in love, you have to keep working at it-- which is something our protagonists failed to do. 
There's something so beautiful about watching Nicholas and Naomi re-fall back in love. They have to re-learn everything about the other, and learn to appreciate the things they may not have noticed before. I'd argue it's even more beautiful than falling in love the first time, because it's harder. Falling in love sometimes is the easy part, sometimes it's the stuff that comes after that becomes harder. 
This book is the perfect combination of that beauty of watching a pair find each other again with the whole rom-com setting. Seriously, this book had me grinning and downright laughing out loud more times than I could count. It's just the perfect blend of things, and I couldn't give it any higher praise. I love the characters. I love the story. I love everything, except Deborah. I'm not a big fan of Deborah, but if you read the book, it's pretty easy to understand why. 
Anyway, if you're not convinced to read this book yet, I don't know what else to say. It's amazing. It's beautiful. It's funny. 9.5/10 stars. I'll be keeping a close eye on Sarah Hogle, because I love her writing and can't wait to see what she comes up with next. 

Synopsis: 

Naomi Westfield has the perfect fiancé: Nicholas Rose holds doors open for her, remembers her restaurant orders, and comes from the kind of upstanding society family any bride would love to be a part of. They never fight. They're preparing for their lavish wedding that's three months away. And she is miserably and utterly sick of him.

Naomi wants out, but there's a catch: whoever ends the engagement will have to foot the nonrefundable wedding bill. When Naomi discovers that Nicholas, too, has been feigning contentment, the two of them go head-to-head in a battle of pranks, sabotage, and all-out emotional warfare.

But with the countdown looming to the wedding that may or may not come to pass, Naomi finds her resolve slipping. Because now that they have nothing to lose, they're finally being themselves--and having fun with the last person they expect: each other.

When your nemesis also happens to be your fiancé, happily ever after becomes a lot more complicated in this wickedly funny, lovers-to-enemies-to-lovers romantic comedy debut. (less)GET A COPY

There are a lot of directions I could've taken this prompt. What kind of sad is it talking about? The kind where you were excited and then disappointed? Or the kind that leaves an ache in your chest long after you've closed the back cover? I've decided to go with the latter, as the former doesn't exactly seem like something I would really necessarily want to talk in excess detail about! Again, there are a lot of books that do that-- all well-written stories should sit with you longer than just the duration of the read. Here are two that have stuck with me. 

I always start these out by saying something along the lines of a lot of books... and this is no different. A lot of books make me happy. It would be impossible to fit all of those books into this one blog post. A good book is one that makes me happy, and as we all know, I have no shortage of good books to talk about. Nevertheless, I will restrain myself and try to keep this post short and sweet so here we go. While a lot of different types of books make me happy, I'm going to stick to two adorably fluffy contemporary romance novels for this post, since those are the very typical "happy" books. 

If you saw my post yesterday, or you just know me in general, you'd know that my favorite book series is Throne of Glass by Sarah J. Maas. I'm a huge fan. I just love everything about it and am completely obsessed. While every single book in this series is magnificent in its own way, by far my favorite would have to be Queen of Shadows. There's just something about this book that is so magnificent, making it stand a head above its peers. This is like the pay off book. We just spent Heir of Fire training, and we were left with some pretty big cliffhangers, and then Queen of Shadows comes into the game and just-- it's everything anyone could have asked for. There are reunions, characters finally meeting, and epic, and I mean EPIC fights. Everything about this book is just unbelievably perfect. I adore it. 

This should come as no surprise to anyone. I've always been very vocal about my adoration of the Throne of Glass Series by Sarah J. Maas. I've always been very vocal of my adoration of Sarah J. Maas as an author in general, as you'll all see in the next 30 days. While my favorite book of all time is another Sarah special, my favorite series would have to be Throne of Glass. Everything about the series is excellent. The characters, the character growth, the plot, the world, the writing-- everything. I can't emphasize just how much I truly love this series. If you love high fantasy, this is definitely a series you'll want to check out. Each book expands on the world. Once you finish the series, looking back on where it starts seems to tiny and inconsequential, whereas it feels direly important during the first book. The series just keeps getting better and better as it continues on. I just... I love it. 

Here's the synopsis for Book 1 Throne of Glass: 
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After serving out a year of hard labor in the salt mines of Endovier for her crimes, 18-year-old assassin Celaena Sardothien is dragged before the Crown Prince. Prince Dorian offers her her freedom on one condition: she must act as his champion in a competition to find a new royal assassin.

Her opponents are men-thieves and assassins and warriors from across the empire, each sponsored by a member of the king's council. If she beats her opponents in a series of eliminations, she'll serve the kingdom for four years and then be granted her freedom. Celaena finds her training sessions with the captain of the guard, Westfall, challenging and exhilarating. But she's bored stiff by court life. Things get a little more interesting when the prince starts to show interest in her ... but it's the gruff Captain Westfall who seems to understand her best.

Then one of the other contestants turns up dead ... quickly followed by another. Can Celaena figure out who the killer is before she becomes a victim? As the young assassin investigates, her search leads her to discover a greater destiny than she could possibly have imagined.